Fatty Turt's Mum Passed Away

Fatty's mum passed away on 12 Dec 09.... I will always remember this date....

Today is the 7th day and it has really sinked in to me that my mum has left me.... I feel really upset inside me....

I wanna write down all that i remember about my mum..... How she cared for me..... How she loved me, my brother any my dad.... All the things she did for us.....

These few days, i have been settling stuffs for my mum together with my father and brother... And they are saying hey mum likes this, mum used to do this every morning, mum used to do see flowers everytime she pass by here....

So many things, yet alot of them seem so unfamiliar to me.... I realised how much i have missed out on my mum these few years since she was ill....

All the time i concentrated on my work, letting it take precedence over everything.... but at this moment, everything seems empty and no point......

Mum, i miss you.....

You always said that i would be the sadest if you left, and yes i am really very sad... I wanna write down all my memories of you....

I hope you will move on to a better place where you will never suffer.... I will take good care of dad... I feel so empty inside me.... So many regrets, so many things i wanna tell you, so many things i wanna do together with you.... So many places i wanna take you to, so many food i wanna bring you to eat..... but powerless to do it all.... I feel so useless.... I love you mum....